deerlings | 180103

🎉 happy new year! ✨
I am currently on no antidepressants, which is weird, but working out pretty well! it's also making me realise I need to be on anti-anxiety meds.
going to Arthur's tomorrow for a few days, very excited to chill!
I accidentally hit a lady on the head today in Waterstones, and I hate myself for it. I was pulling my hair out of my coat and my arm went back, as it does, and because I have zero proprioception, I didn't realise she was there, and I was like "what did I just touch (turn) OH GOD I AM SO SO SORRY" aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa she said she was okay and she apologised too, because this is England, this is what we do, but just, gosh, I wish I knew how to control my limbs. luckily, it wasn't too hard, but still! plus, this isn't the first time I've accidentally touched someone in a Waterstones either! I blame the narrow gaps between bookshelfs and tables, as well as my noodle appendages.
(the first time, my arms were swinging freely and the back of my right hand brushed up against a guy's butt accidentally, leading to a very weird conversation about French textbooks wherein he assumed I worked there and I guessed he was stoned from how he was talking and he thought I was flirting with him by touching his butt and I was like nooo. no, sorry, noodle arms.)
my body is doing weird things right now that I do not appreciate, but then again, I guess, when is it not?
I got a backpack for Christmas!!! I love it, it is pink, and it is mine!
getting a haircut next week, very excited for it! I love my very long hair, but I just am losing the energy and ability to maintain it, plus I want to freshen up my look a bit!