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• 🎉 happy new year! ✨
• I am currently on no antidepressants, which is weird, but working out pretty well! it's also making me realise I need to be on anti-anxiety meds.
• going to Arthur's tomorrow for a few days, very excited to chill!
• I accidentally hit a lady on the head today in Waterstones, and I hate myself for it. I was pulling my hair out of my coat and my arm went back, as it does, and because I have zero proprioception, I didn't realise she was there, and I was like "what did I just touch (turn) OH GOD I AM SO SO SORRY" aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa she said she was okay and she apologised too, because this is England, this is what we do, but just, gosh, I wish I knew how to control my limbs. luckily, it wasn't too hard, but still! plus, this isn't the first time I've accidentally touched someone in a Waterstones either! I blame the narrow gaps between bookshelfs and tables, as well as my noodle appendages. 
• (the first time, my arms were swinging freely and the back of my right hand brushed up against a guy's butt accidentally, leading to a very weird conversation about French textbooks wherein he assumed I worked there and I guessed he was stoned from how he was talking and he thought I was flirting with him by touching his butt and I was like nooo. no, sorry, noodle arms.)
• my body is doing weird things right now that I do not appreciate, but then again, I guess, when is it not? 
• I got a backpack for Christmas!!! I love it, it is pink, and it is mine!
• getting a haircut next week, very excited for it! I love my very long hair, but I just am losing the energy and ability to maintain it, plus I want to freshen up my look a bit!