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• still very tired! my body is doing a few odd things as of late, so yeah. not loving it!
• I was supposed to have a very important appointment with a special gastroenterologist in London a week and a bit ago but there was no parking because London hospitals suck with that (5 disabled bays? for a huge inner city hospital??? awful) so we're gonna have to get that rearranged. 
• coincidentally, my stomach being worse than usual is one of the annoying body things :/ I love feeling gross and nauseated whether I eat or not :///
• my anxiety has been all over recently too?? just spontaneous debilitating panic attacks and feeling like I've been scooped out and that I'm really vulnerable and bweh. bad.
• plus I've developed eczema on my scalp and around my eyes, although this has been sorted for the time being! yay
• archery is going well! my new bow is mostly sorted, and it's usable now at least! it shoots really well and I'm improving a lot! it feels really good
• have gotten into the habit of playing cribbage with dad every night. it's nice! :D we use a lil bee as the pot token
• seeing bees out and about in the garden has made me very happy c:
• haven't written much at all recently, but I can feel myself working up towards it again!